"Knowledge of oneself is a very big, but a very
vague and distant, aim. Man in his present state is
very far from self-knowledge. Therefore, strictly speaking,
his aim cannot even be defined as self-knowledge. Self-study
must be his big aim. It is quite enough if a man understands
that he must study himself. It must be man's aim to
begin to study himself, to know himself, in the right
way.
Self-study is the work or the way which leads to self-knowledge.
But in order to study oneself one must first learn
how to study, where to begin, what methods to use. A
man must learn how to study himself, and he must study
the methods of self-study.
The chief method of self-study is self-observation.
There are two methods of self-observation: analysis,
or attempts at analysis, that is, attempts to find the
answers to the questions: upon what does a certain thing
depend, and why does it happen; and the second method
is registering, simply 'recording' in one's
mind what is observed at the moment.
Self-observation, especially in the beginning, must
on no account become analysis or attempts at analysis."
What is self-observation?
Self-observation is a constant effort of active, objective
attention directed inwards, intentionally turning a
portion of your attention inward in order to observe
yourself. In a way, it is a practice of observing yourself
as if another person, or even a camera or video recorder,
might see you.
It is simply impartially observing, "recording"
without judgment, your thoughts, emotions,
feelings, moods, sensations, and even movements, tones
of voice, facial expressions, and so on.
As Peter Ouspensky describes it:
When
I observe something, my attention is directed towards
what I observe - a line with one arrowhead.
I
--------------------------------> the observed
phenomenon
When
at the same time, I try to remember myself,
my attention is directed
both towards the object observed and towards myself.
A second arrowhead appears
on the line:
I <------------------------------->
the observed phenomenon
If one continually practices self-observation, over
a period of time they will come to understand themselves
in a completely new way, and quite possibly discover
a sense of inner freedom and knowing that they had not
previously expected.
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